Not done changing

The boys are back at school and I can get back to the regular routine, I don't know whether to be happy or sad about it! We've had a good half term and I'm a little sad that the boys are back at school. Getting back to normal routine is always nice but when you've had a good break together there's always that little part of you that wants longer.

The strange thing is we didn't do anything particularly different this half term. We took the boys bowling last week, we played pool at the bowling centre on another day, and we played board games. The week wasn't busy, although I did feel like I was busy, the boys got to play their computer games, as did the Hubby and we went out for a couple of meals. 

While it was a slow week we got plenty done and taking a little break from the blog did me good. I've had some ideas brewing lately and while they're still in the idea stage I can say I'm excited by them. I remember feeling this way when I discovered writing and it's like finding a new part of yourself. All this time I thought I hated crafting but trying out card-making was fun and made me think about it more. Like I said my ideas are still in the brewing stage but I'm hoping I can turn them into something real.

The more that you read, the more things you will know. The more that you learn, the more places you'll go.

Dr Seuss

This new phase has made me think about myself and the ways I have changed over the years. I am 36 years old and I'm not done changing. When I was growing up I believed that once you were an adult that was it, you stayed the same, liked the same things, and enjoyed the same foods, forever. 

Becoming a mother obviously changed me, in many ways both physical and mental. I became aware of the dangers of the world, I loved someone more than I ever thought possible, and I am more strict than I remember my parents being. When my boys were born I dedicated my life to them, I didn't do anything that I enjoyed "just for me", my whole world was my boys. It still is in some ways, but less so. 

Now my boys are of school age (7 and 12) I have 6 hours every day to fill with things I enjoy. Writing has been that thing for a few years, I've drafted 2 novels and written this blog. It was therapeutic and made me realise that it was possible to be something other than just the boys' mum. 

Having spent a little time making cards I realise that I am still not done changing. I once hated crafting and now I find it therapeutic. So much so that I've spent money on equipment and stationery to help me explore this new side of myself. It may turn into something more, it may not. But the point is that I can enjoy this side of myself and explore what it is I enjoy so much. 

All the change that is happening at the moment makes me see that no matter what your age you're still growing.

Your tastes change, you find you enjoy different foods and different movies. Your outlook on life changes, your priorities shift, you discover new abilities. You are never done growing and though you may feel like you're stuck in a rut all you need to do is try out something a little different.

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. 

Harriet Tubman

What new thing will you try this year?