My Mum

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It's that time of year again and reading poems about wonderful mums is hurting. Not that I don't love Mother's Day, I get lovely gifts from my boys, we go to see my mother-in-law and I send gifts to my step-mum. 

But something is missing...

This will always be the case, I don't foresee any changes to the situation, there's nothing I can do to change it. My real mum is inconsistent and selfish. There I said it. That might sound harsh but I've been through a lot and when I needed her most she turned her back. 

I was 14 years old when she shattered my heart, she broke me. At a time when a teenage girl needs her mum most mine turned away. She denied me love, she called me a liar. And she will never know how truly broken I am because of her words. 

From a very young age I realised my mum didn't love me as much as my sisters. I have two sisters and to this day she sees them on a regular basis, even taking care of her other grandchildren. But I was different. I don't know why and I don't think I'll ever understand what I did wrong. I have tried, many times, to reconcile. I've given her more chances than I can count and in the end I had to cut ties.

My little family matters more to me than anything else in this world and I will not allow an uncaring person to go anywhere near my boys. Even if that means denying them a grandmother. As I see it I am sparing them the heartache I've endured. 

Mother's Day always brings these feelings up and it always will, we all need a mother's love.

I am a very lucky lady though, my two boys (and the Hubby) will make Mother's Day a great one for me, I can count on that. We'll visit my mother-in-law, chat and have tea, and then return home after a busy day. Although I won't get to see my step-mum I'll be sending her a card and gift and she'll know how much she has helped me through the years. 

To thank her for all she's done I've written a poem and sent gifts, but it will never be enough. She stuck with me through difficult teenage years. We fought, yelled and hated each other but she was there, she's always been there, and if we lived closer I know I'd see her all the time. From now on when I talk about my mum, this is who I'm talking about. A very special lady who took care of a broken child she didn't give birth to. It was a difficult job but she took it on and she did a fantastic job.

This Mother's Day please take a minute to thank your mum for all she has done. To have a strong bond with your mum is an incredible thing and you should NEVER take that for granted. Whether she gave birth to you or not she took care of you as you grew, she guided you the best she could, and you wouldn't be the person you are today without her.

Morgan's Milieu | My Mum: Roses and Thank you.


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12 comments:

  1. I'm sorry that you have had to cut contact with you other mum, that must have been very hard for you *hug* But I'm pleased you have a fabulous mum who has looked after you and a good family.

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    1. Thank you Olivia, I was very lucky the woman my dad chose to be with was a wonderful woman.

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  2. Oh, this is so sad to hear, Morgan. I'm sorry you had such a terrible experience growing up. I'm glad you have a lovely and loving family to make you feel as cherished as you deserve. Big hugs. xxx

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    1. Thank you hun, I do feel lucky to have a loving family. They make the heartache go away. :) xx

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  3. I'm sorry to hear about this, Morgan. I can only imagine how much this hurts, but yes, you are blessed to have a wonderful family and a step-mom who stood by you. I hope you have a lovely Mother's Day x

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    1. Thank you Tarana, my family make it all worth it in the end. I did have a really nice Mother's Day, thank you. xx

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  4. I am so sorry that your relationship with your mum is so difficult, I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day x

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    1. Bless you thank you. My boys really took care of me on Mother's Day. xx

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  5. I can relate to this so much....My mother left my dad for a man he met on the internet about 12 years ago and took their life savings....I was made to choose between her and my dad....My dad needed me more. She didn't take it well and made my life hell for years....I hate this time of year and the run up to mothers day....It makes me so jealous of those who have their mothers....
    Sending massive hugs!! xxx

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    1. Oh goodness Kim I'm so sorry. Believe me I know how you feel. I'm so thankful to have a loving family surrounding me and I'm sure you have the same. I hope your girls made your Mother's Day great. :) Thanks for the hugs, back at ya hun. xx

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  6. A heartfelt post Morgan and thank you for sharing it. A tough time for you but it sounds like your boys more than make up for it x

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    1. Oh they do Carol thank you. They made my day on Sunday, I even had breakfast in bed! :)

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