Finding Me

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Talking to a friend this morning inspired me to write 'Finding Me'


Being a mum is a hard job, the children need us constantly and sometimes, along the way, we lose ourselves. We forget to save time for us, to do the things we love. After a while we forget what we loved and don't know how to get it back. We give in to being mother, we assign ourselves that label, and we forget who we really are.

I went through this just after LP went to nursery. I was lucky, at the time I was reading a book that inspired me to try to write something myself. Three years on I have written one novel (hidden away) and am trying to complete my second. I love writing, it is therapeutic and I get rather grumpy when I can't do it. I found me, I discovered a love that no one else influenced. When I sit in my room and there's a blank page in front of me, my mind is filled with ideas (most of the time).

If you feel like you've lost yourself and are 'mum' but nothing else I urge you to find you again.


Finding Me


The dark cloud hovers
Above my head
Threatening rain 
Go back to bed

The weight is heavy
It pushes me down
My mood blackens
Deepening my frown

Being mum is hard
A constant job
Children need me
I want to sob

I've lost who I am
Become just a shadow
What do I want?
I simply don't know.

Talks with friends 
Shaping a plan
Glimmers of hope
To find who I am

The sun peaks through
Those darkened clouds
A brighter smile
Losing the shrouds

A journey to find
My inner needs
All it takes
Is to plant the seeds

Prose for Thought

14 comments:

  1. Beautiful poem and sums up motherhood and the process of being lost and found within it so well. I, like you, found myself in writing as well. It's so therapeutic and oh so helpful for a stay at home mama like me. Thank you for sharing this.

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    1. Thank you Maria, writing has been my haven that's for sure! Thank you for your lovely comments. xx

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  2. Yes, 'Mum' does take over us, lovely poem.
    #prose4T

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  3. I love this - my favourite piece from this weeks #proseforthought Hope that light grows - you're still in there you just need to find you xxx

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    1. Thank you so much Katie. I am in there, the writing is bringing me out. :) xx

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  4. Oh my lovely, I hope you manage to get back to happy and find yourself again real soon. Beautiful poem! Also I think I misunderstood your post the other day, I saw the reply to my comment - really hope I didn't upset you xxx

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    1. Thanks hun. No I wasn't upset, I just didn't want you to think I was putting you down for self-publishing your book. I really do think you're fabulous for doing it! xx

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  5. You have just written the story of my life! I can identify with every sentiment you so beautifully describe. I started blogging because I thought my head would explode if I didn't do anything, and tend to get grumpy when I can't find time to write. Hope you carry on writing and enjoying it x #prose4T

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    1. Thanks! It really is a release isn't it? Thanks for stopping by. xx

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  6. Morgan you have summed up motherhood perfectly. I feel exactly the same way as you about my writing - it is totally my release. Thank you for linking to Prose for Thought x

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    1. Thanks so much Victoria, I'm glad to be linking up again! xx

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  7. What a wonderful poem Morgan. You described motherhood perfectly. We do tend to lose ourselves somewhere along the line. I had to find myself too but I think every Mom has experienced this... Well every Mom I have ever known that is. I'm glad you were able to find yourself through writing isn't it the best form of therapy ever?

    Wishing you a lovely day!

    xx
    Lysa

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    1. Thanks so much Lysa. Writing IS the best form of therapy, a way to escape or just rant. I love it. Thank you for your lovely words, have a great day! xx

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