My Endless Love of Writing

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If you've read any of my posts this week you'll know that my eldest boy, BP (who's 9), has been away on a school trip. He gets back at 7pm and I can't wait to hear him tell us about all the things he's seen and done. I'm sure he will talk our ears off when he gets home.

Having BP away has been hard in many ways but the most surprising was my energy levels. I've been so tired this week because of having to occupy LP the whole time and I feel a long weekend of sleeping is well overdue. But the other thing I've missed out on this week is my writing time. I haven't written one word for the book and I'm definitely missing it.

Friday afternoon I stopped, mid-sentence, because BP was ill. I spent the weekend getting him ready for his trip and this week I've spent all my time with LP. Last night I was thinking about getting back to the book but the dreaded self-doubt hit.

What if I can't remember what I was going to write? 

What if it's rubbish? 

Why am I even bothering, I can't write well anyway.

And the rest.

This morning I went for a run outside. I don't usually run outside, there aren't many flat areas near me and I can't run uphill, not yet anyway. However a friend of mine invited me along with her on a route she had mapped out and there were no hills. As I ran along a path I was surrounded by greenery, fields stretched into the distance on both sides of me and a forest ahead. My feet hit the ground and the crunching of the stones under my trainers kept me going, like the beat of music. The wind blew and cooled my burning face. And my muse sat on my shoulder chatting and inspiring me. The. Whole. Time. Typical!

As many writers know the most likely time your muse will show up is when it is simply impossible for you to jot down what he/she/it is saying. After my evening of self-doubt I was so pleased to be hearing her words that I ignored the fact that I couldn't take notes and listened. Not only did her words keep me going on my run but I was somehow able to remember every word and as soon as I got to my car I tapped them into my notes app. And now my writing mojo is back. Yay!

The life of a writer is full of hills and valleys. Sometimes you feel like you can't write one word, it's as if there's something blocking the words coming out of your brain. Other times your fingers can't move quick enough over the keyboard. Your muse always sits in the background, watching. They don't often get involved but when they do it's a truly amazing feeling. The ideas and images they conjure up make you want to write immediately. But the very best thing about being a writer is that it never goes away.

I can spend months with the self-doubt imp or that nasty writer's block monster but sooner or later I know my muse will save me. Some inspiration will hit and I'll be back in front of the computer with my fingers speeding across the keyboard emitting smoke as they go. My love of creating worlds and characters is so deep that it won't ever leave. It's like my love for my children, endless.

Linking up to #AllAboutYou with the lovely Mama_andmore why don't you join us?

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18 comments:

  1. Congrats on getting first through a week of your child being away, and two getting your mojo back. I would love to write but am simply not that good at it! #pocolo

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    1. I'm so glad to have my boy back now and things will soon be back to normal. Thanks for stopping by and commenting. :)

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  2. i can totally identify with all of this! I'm also trying to write a book at the moment and am doing CampNaNoWriMo this month (if you've not heard of it defs check it out!) and aiming to do another 15,000 words. Today I'm suddenly feeling like everything I've written so far is... well a bit rubbish really. Yes, the self doubt demon knows me! But then, like you I also have a muse and I like to think she is more powerful than the demon. Over all I just love writing! (and also - like you - my boys!) Glad your son is coming back - I'm sure he will be full of tales to inspire you with. xx #pocolo

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    1. I have heard of NaNoWriMo but not the Camp. I'll have to check that one out. Yes the muse can be very powerful can't she? I always love it when she shows up, even if it's just a fleeting visit. Good luck with the book and CampNaNoWriMo, you'll have to let me know how you get on. xx

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  3. I can totally relate to a lot of writer's block. I do not know what it's like writing a book, since I haven't tried my hand at that since age 15, but I can relate to it on my blogging journey. I understand all about your muse whispering at you when you have no opportunity to jot what it says down. #PoCoLO By the way, what's that #AllAboutYou linky?

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    1. Oh yes, writer's block hits all of us doesn't it?
      The #AllAboutYou linky is basically where you write a blog post about yourself, what you like, don't like, as long as it's about you. Share it on the page and read others' posts. It's a great way of learning about other bloggers. It is run by a lovely lady, Mama_andmore and it is a very welcoming community. You should definitely check it out. :)

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  4. This is a great post Morgan and I can totally agree with your writer's block. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on writing.

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    1. Thanks Cathy, and thank you for stopping by and commenting. :)

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  5. I really liked this post, and I can identify with the bad timing the muse has! Mine always turns up when I'm in the shower, and by the time I've dried off the words have vanished!

    Good luck with your writing #pocolo

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    1. Oh yes this has happened to me before and I distinctly remember cursing my muse for disappearing afterwards too!

      Thanks for stopping by. :)

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  6. Oh, I can completely relate to the inopportune moments that inspiration strikes :) I have been distinctly lacking in inspiration recently, but it is wonderful when the flow starts! #AllAboutYou

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    1. Oh dear Sara I hope your inspiration comes soon but you know that wonderful feeling will be that much sweeter when it does. :)

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  7. I would want tmy muse in writing back. I have this story in myhead, wrote it down but cant seem to find the ending. Someday hopefully I will. #PoCoLo

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    1. I'm sure you'll find that ending soon pixiedusk, just keep going and it'll come to you eventually. I wish you the best.

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  8. This was wonderful Morgan, it's wonderful that you could take the time to simply listen to your muse and let that voice speak to you and soothe you, and perhaps not having pen and paper to hand immediately allowed your mind to process and interpret a bit too. I know what you mean about being the sole entertainer too, it's full on and leaves little physical or mental space at all! Thank you so much for linking to #AllAboutYou this week, wonderful to have you back! Xxx

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    1. Thanks Zaz. I was really surprised by how tiring it was being entertainer all week but I'm glad to report that things are heading back to normal now. It was actually a great experience to have my muse chatting away while I ran and I was really pleased to be able to remember what she said!

      I'm glad to be back posting for #AllAboutYou again, I do love the linky. :)

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  9. Like you I find that inspiration often strikes me when I'm running with no way of writing the ideas down! I usually try to number the ideas and just remember the number but often I'm back thinking 'four' and no idea what each thing was! Congrats on getting your writing mojo back - from a fellow lover of words x

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    1. It must be something about being outside in the open air that gets the creative juices flowing. Someone needs to come up with some brand new technology for runners who are writers, don't know what it is but I'd definitely use it!
      Thanks, it feels great to be writing again. :)

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